Good god. It's been a hot minute.
And, it's not as if I haven't been busy, like, you know, expanding, contracting, purging, morphing, collapsing, rebuilding, increasing my ability to be more Light and less matter. Less particle, more wave. Allowing myself to be a clearer expression of Source. That sort of thing.
How DO even I write about that? I mean....Ascension blah blah blah....Self-realization blah blah blah...Mystical Mysteries yada yada yada. Me, me, me. My experience, blah blah blah. Genuinely, who cares?
And then there's that whole self-inflicted-brain-injury-by-pharmeceutical-drugs thing that happened and how do I fit that in?
Also, I haven't mentioned the multiple lost teeth and several rounds of oral surgery. (I might as well just put it ALL out there.)
Oh, and I'm letting go of alcohol and marijuana as I write this. (It's a process, for sure.)
I know it's all connected somehow...I'm just not sure how to write about it if I don't *know* how it's connected or what my ultimate message is. I think I'm gonna need more information.
Writing i, perhaps, one of my more readily available creative expressions and yet I just.....don't do it. Because I'm really only compelled to write through the lens of my own experience AND I don't think *I* have anything of any import or anything interesting to share. It feels self-indulgent.
And, yet.....there's that small voice which consistently urges, "Write. Write that. Express THAT in writing." And, so, I suppose I will.
My job, it seems, is to quiet the opposing voice which would continue to convince me that my words are meaningless, pointless. (That voice....yes, you...I know you're trying to protect me....I feel you, and, well....pipe down.)
I can't count the number of times I have considered, attempted and actually created a blog/talk/podcast type of platform through which I could speak my busy mind and they've all come to naught. Which is fine. No shame, nor judgement. I couldn't seem to master the technology required to successfully deliver on any of that, so it all lies dormant AND it's why I find myself back here, at Blogspot.
Ultimately, I feel like I'm not really in "primer" mode anymore and I'll likely change the name of this space - in the meantime, I'll drop some stuff here and see how it feels. The good news is that have an audience of ZERO so it's a fairly safe place for me to let 'er rip. I'll be honest, tho....
I offer my understanding, through my Soul's experience, filtered by my human's stuff. Isn't that what everyone is doing out here in the interwebs? No one really knows anything. Even physicists, with their fancy equations and such, are only postulating about Reality. So, why not with my wry observations and wit, right?
I'm having a profound experience of this Life, Why let that go to unacknowledged?
I'll be back.
